When they reminisce over you my god how to#

Nothing is worth being upset over, unless something bad was to happen to something as special as Mooshu, straight up, I'd lose my marbles.

When they reminisce over you my god how to#

It's not about simply getting through the rain, it's about learning how to dance while you're in it ? lol SOME shit ! I'm smiling. Reality check for the young and hopeless, reckless, heartless. but it will all fall accordingly in time. I'm a firm believer in 'everything happens for a reason', I don't know what my reason is yet. These unexpected turns in life have really taken me far, I know, but I have faith that somewhere down the road it will bring me back to where I first found something real.

There are moments in life where you just stop and reflect on what you truely have/had, and those moments I spent with something great. I don't know much (to state the obvious once more lol) but I know that within these past couple of months, I've never felt more genuinely happy and secure. I know it's impossible to make every one happy, but seeing the ones I care for happy, is honestly where I find most of my happiness. I don't know which way to go - where ever I do go, I will end up in the same stagnant position. still, like life is just passing me by in this blur where I can barely make out the colors of the moving vehicles, yet I'm able to hear all the commotion. As if i'm literally immobile - paralyzed in a whopping heap of quicksand with a crowd of people surrounding me, yet nobody reaching out their hands to help lift me out. Bring it on >:)ДЄsides from escuela, Life has been an emotional rollercoaster. Can't stop Won' t stop - for the sake of my future and Mom. The price of taking pre-med ? Sigh, I'ma toughen up and really get on my grind. Whatever, it sucks but in a way it feels kinda good knowing that I am actually doing something. But as you can see, I am already overwhelmed with this at hand.

eh ? Just for the fuck of it, Let me tell you what I have due STILL after my x amount of hours that I put in for studying and HW-doing these past several days - Chem Lab due Tuesday, Africana Perspectives Breakdown Paper of Nas 'NY State of Mind' using Classic Literary Elements (yeah,yeah I know prrretty dope), Chapter one's Spanish homework, Math Re-do 002 (since I probably bombed the one due at 5 AM) + Math class #2, Online 60 questions and Online Quiz. With this follows a shitload of studying, homework and of course, unnescesary miscellaneous tid bit's that seem to matter to my professors - but don't benefit me. From Chemistry, to two Math classes (one which I have to spend 3 hours each week in a computer lab), to a difficult English class, a foreign language WITH a community engagement placement (: manditory work - once a week - outside campus at a institute of your choice), I am undertaking an overload of 22 credits. I want to give back, and I want to be able to provide my children a comfortable and carefree life that my Ma worked so hard to provide my brother and I - single mother at that. I don't know how and when I realized all of this, but I really need to do well. I was always so used to passing by tests and homeworks, managing 1 hour crash sessions, and squeezing in some extra credits in between. I swear, it has never been this serious to me.

I actually intended on beating the sun to sleep this time, but forgetful ol' me forgot that I had my online math homework due - cut off time: 5 AM. (or the rare few that actually stay posted.) I slept at 5 AM this morning. Last entry was such half-ass effort, and yet, I still can't promise that this one will make up for it - 'cause frankly, I find myself losing inspiration as each day progresses - in addition to not being able to even sort out my problems/emotions for my OWN self, let alone my blogspot audience. As cliche and slightly 'emo?', as that sounds, I don't think theres a better way to phrase it. Somewhere down the road, I've lost myself.